Thursday, March 22, 2007

Home... At Last!

Hello! As the title says, I am finally back at home; literally and figuratively. I am in India, more specifically, UP and to nail it right down to the board, Meerut. Permanently. And, of course, I am back on the blog. (yay! 3 cheers!)

It has been more than two years to the date since my last post. It was a very conscious decision to let go of blogging for a while. I was pigeon-holing myself into a loop; observe->analyse->observe. I wasn't really doing anything! I was tired of being the intentional perfect observer. I ended up having more to say, and less to do, if you know what I mean. I don't know why this mutual exclusivity had to hang on with me either. I could either observe and analyse, or I could go out and live life without analysing. I guess its all a part of that great search in our lives and times, of a fine balance.

So, what have I been doing in these past two years? A LOT. When I say a LOT I really mean quite a bit. And when I say quite a bit I, of course, mean more than just quite a bit. (hehe I am still quite garrulously irritating). It really has been quite a journey. Someone might ask, where did I go, or what did I learn, what did I do, etc? And I can quite happily summarize my experiences in one word. Nothing/Nowhere. (that looks like 2 words; but not quite, technically) It is with utter glee I say that I have absolutely nothing to show for these two years of my life. Not a single thought, not a single quote, not a single penny, no advice, nothing substantial, nothing intangible, or tangible for that matter. Zilch. Zip, nada, zero! (I've wanted to use that since forever) But I had a lot of fun. It was an adventure. Kinda like one of those inane american roadtrip movies which have no point to prove but are insanely fun to watch; once. I lived the american dream, travelled all over the place, met a lot of people (some of them quite exotic), and generally just whiled away such time from my life which could have been spent in more worthy pursuits.

But it hasn't been entirely inconsequential. I have allowed life to mould me in the meanwhile. The life that I was living has induced changes in me. These changes didn't come about in any earth-shattering moment either. They crept up on me without an inkling, foreboding, or sign of visible change. But for better or for worse, I am now not what I used to be. I don't want to be the author of a novel anymore. I am more like one of those quirky characters inside of a novel.

That sums up the look over my shoulder part. For the future, who knows! And who cares! I am headed off to Bombay to work with an excellent bunch of people at Inzane Labs. It is a great place to put some crazy ideas about work and technology into practise. And Bombay definitely has its own character. It is going to be a very interesting ride.

Will keep everyone updated! Adios! Cheers! And love to all who had given up hope that this blog will ever up updated.

7 comments:

PG said...

Welcome aboard :) .. I can't wait to catch up with you. Talk to you soon!

Mauve Stocking said...

hey...so curently this 'new and improved' phase is running in the family...[;)]
shall wait for more blogs from ya...

Anonymous said...

its been more than a year since your last post, not more than two :)

Vartika said...

Hi Rajat!
I would just like to drop by and say thank you for writing...
there are times when you have so much to say that words fail you and so much to feel that you are numb and so on...and then there are times you come across random posts and see a hint of yourself and a touch of your own there...and you smile...to yourself that you are not alone...that it's normal...and even though you may always be on the look for 'something different', nothing comforts you more than the thought that "we are all together, it happens, it is, well, normal"
This was one of those random posts i came across and here's my heartfelt thanks!
Have a gr8 life!

Vartika said...

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BTW I help out some ex-IIMA guys who with another batch mate run www.rambhai.com where you can post links to your most loved blog-posts. Rambhai was the chaiwala at IIMA and it is a site where users can themselves share links to blog posts etc and other can find and vote on them. The best make it to the homepage!

This way you can reach out to rambhai readers some of whom could become your ardent fans.. who knows.. :)

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